But.

At some point, people may prepare a Plan A to Z of their future. Some people may find themselves doing different things at the same time. And I am one of those people. You may call this as quarter-life crisis but really, at this point in life I still wonder to what direction am I heading?

I thought that this is something that we only ask ourselves when we were still in high school, about to enter college. But look at me, almost two years after college graduation and yet, I still don't know the answer to that question.

Yes, I am contented with where I am now but still... That "but" again. A part of me wants to do something else, try new things, know what it feels like to be there, take the risk. However, there's the fear that if I get out from the security that I have now, I may not be able to come back especially if things don't go as planned.

In terms of plans, I have lots of them. But in terms of doings something to achieve those plans, then I did nothing. That is simply because I don't really know what I want to do in life.

How then, will we know what we want in life? Shall we look at the future like an optimistic dreamer? Or shall we rather be realistic in facing tomorrow?

Questions left to be answered.

Love Cheese?

Don't ever think that you don't mean anything to me. Because you do. You mean a lot to me.

Don't ever think that I'm not happy with you. Because I am. You make me smile. You make me laugh. You make me happy.

Don't ever think that I'd leave you for another guy. Because I won't. I won't let go of your hand. I'm yours.

Don't ever think that I won't fight for you. Because I would. I'd give them more than a hundred reasons to defend our love.

And don't ever think that I don't love you. Because I do. I really do.

Time.

I wish we could spend more time together. I wish we could see each other everyday and be in each other's arms.

Self - Check.

Before, I used to just rate my teacher’s performance subjectively rather than objectively. I don’t even fill out the ‘Comment’ part at the end of the evaluation sheet.

Now, it’s different. I get to read the student’s evaluation of me with their comments. 

It’s a humbling experience whenever you get to read positive feedback but it’s also a time for a self-check especially if you get negative ones. The important thing is, I get to assess which characteristics I should keep and which ones to improve on.

I’m just thankful that my first set of students (for the second semester last school year) were not that harsh. 

Understanding, Reserved, Discreet

I have always been a fan of personality tests and all other online personality quizzes. So here's the result of the latest personality quiz i bumped into while surfing the net earlier. 

Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what’s going on with other people, especially if they’re in distress. You’re a good listener, you don’t criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it’s requested. With a high score on the “understanding” trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don’t feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

Reserved

You are somewhat shy, or at least unwilling to spend all your time socializing. With you it’s true that “still waters run deep,” which is why many of your acquaintances never get to know you well.

You are not always ready to talk at the drop of a hat. Whether you’re in the office or at a party, you’re not likely to be found gabbing away in the middle of a group of people.

Discreet

You tend to hold onto your thoughts until you have something important to say, and even then you’re not comfortable imposing your ideas on others unless you know they’re truly interested.

You don’t enjoy talking for the sake of talking, and you have no desire to be the center of attention.

Cooperative

You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.

You’re not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.

Scrupulous

You are an honest, fair person. You don’t lie or cheat to get ahead. You treat others with respect and hope for the same in return.

You do not feel that you are above the rules that everyone else follows; you are definitely not willing to do whatever it takes to get ahead.

Empathetic

You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.

You don’t buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else’s because unless you’re happy you’re incapable of making anyone else happy.

Introspective

You like your own company; you’re a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you’re thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what’s going on in your mind is more compelling than what’s going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the “introspective” trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.

You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what’s going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.

You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Acquiescent

You are comfortable in your own skin and don’t need to throw your weight around. You’ll often choose to be the one who is told what to do rather than the one who’s doing the telling, and you sometimes avoid confrontations even if it means that you won’t get your way.

You aren’t interested in making others bend to your will or in always dishing out criticism. You’re not a pushy person, and you like it that way.

Self-Contained

You like to stick to your own business and leave the power struggles to others; you know who you are and what you believe in, but you don’t see any reason to impose your values on everyone else.

You generally don’t get involved in organizing or motivating people, and you don’t feel the need to always be seen as a big public decision-maker.

So true! My previous tests also show similar results. 

You can get your results here. Enjoy!

Love Cheese?

I wouldn't forget the time when you held my hand while we were sleeping and you traced the words "I LOVE YOU" on my palm. <3

Random Things I Love About You

i love the way you hold my hand
i love it when you hug me 
i love it when you hold me close
i love it when you hug me
i love to lean on your shoulders
i love the way you whisper in my ear
i love to kiss your nose
i love to kiss your lips
i love it when you make me laugh
i love the way you look me in the eyes
i love it when you kiss me
i love it when you say you miss me
i love it when you say that i'm you're girlfriend
i love the way you call me your baby
i love it when we cuddle close
i love to brush my nose against your neck
i even love it when you let me bite you
i love the way you make me feel
i love you!